Monday, October 1, 2007

Downward spiral?

So...... my birthday is in exactly 29 days. And all I can think is, "is this how its gonna be until I finally give up the ghost and die?" I'm not sure exactly what I expected out of my life, ever. I think first and foremost, I'm surprised I'm still alive. Sad as it sounds, I honestly thought I would be dead by now. How morbid was I to be thinking at 12 "I don't really have to plan THAT far ahead....its not like I'm planning on making it past 25 anyway."? Well, I'm 2 years past that monument, and still kicking. Only problem is....I haven't figured out why yet.

I really hope I have an epiphany this month because I really need some answers.

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